A stream of consciousness is a peculiar life event. Our waking moments are spent on thoughts, all sorts of thoughts. These thoughts are generated usually by desires, a desire to eat when hungry, to nap when sleepy, to curse at an absent minded driver and a desire for comfort when too hot or too cold. We are also driven by a desire to make money in order that we may feed and clothe ourselves and provide shelter. Finally our thoughts are driven by our sexual desires, especially if we have not mastered the art of chastity. These desires create thousands of different thoughts which affect both our positive and negative emotions. Some negative emotional states include: anger, jealousy, hatred, greed, revenge, depression, inferiority, and lust. Some say that these negatively directed thoughts and emotions are a result of concupiscence. Some positive emotional states include: love, generosity, forgiveness, empathy, fidelity, honesty, and kindness. What is the cause of these positive thoughts and emotions? Some would say God and the Holy Spirit.
I decided to focus all of my conscious thought today on God. Everything I though or didn’t think or said or didn’t say or did or didn’t do was going to be as if God were acting through me. In other words I retained God in the forefront of my consciousness all day. At the end of the day I submitted myself to self-examination. During my evening examine while writing this paper, I remember most all of my daily events. I can remember talking to my secretary and complimenting her on her work. Or talking to my client in court and fully explaining his remedies and not rushing the process. I remember speaking with the Judge at the bench in a calm and deliberate manner with respect. I remember talking to a client at the office seeking a divorce from a husband who is using drugs and alcohol to the extent that her life was in danger and advising her of a correct course of action with empathy. I didn’t think myself better than or have negative thoughts about the man sleeping on the park bench or the man operating a weed eater on the grounds of the LSU campus. I can remember not getting angry with the guy who pulled out in front of me or the clerk who was rude at the counter. I can remember being pleasant with all of the people I encountered throughout the day with cordial greetings. God even revealed His presence in the part He played in my day. The topic by our speaker at my usual bible study luncheon on Thursdays was “God is with us constantly. Do you live with a steady awareness of His presence with you?” How amazing is that that God would confirm my decision to retain a continuous, conscious encounter with Him through the words of another man on the same day I decided to be 100% faithful.
On my drive home from work without the radio blaring, I realized that today was filled with joy, happiness and loving-kindness. I then began wondering why and how do we allow these negative emotional states to overtake us and decided that it was not necessarily concupiscence. What drives these thoughts are the evil spirits which we allow to invade our soul, mind and heart. We are not fully committed to God. We allow evil to hang around. We must come to realize that God choses to be constantly with us but it is we who are not aware of His presence on a minute to minute basis. We lapse into a state of evil consciousness. When god through His holy spirit invades every cell of our being, there is no room for evil. All vices are pushed out of body and soul and we can act Christ-like.. What I learned is that when we think and talk to ourselves and others, we must act as though we are having a conversation with God. And in the process we wind up imitating Christ. I found it emotionally draining to keep God in the forefront of my consciousness all day. But today I learned that with a lot of effort, a little practice and patience and the diligence of God, it can be done.
I decided to focus all of my conscious thought today on God. Everything I though or didn’t think or said or didn’t say or did or didn’t do was going to be as if God were acting through me. In other words I retained God in the forefront of my consciousness all day. At the end of the day I submitted myself to self-examination. During my evening examine while writing this paper, I remember most all of my daily events. I can remember talking to my secretary and complimenting her on her work. Or talking to my client in court and fully explaining his remedies and not rushing the process. I remember speaking with the Judge at the bench in a calm and deliberate manner with respect. I remember talking to a client at the office seeking a divorce from a husband who is using drugs and alcohol to the extent that her life was in danger and advising her of a correct course of action with empathy. I didn’t think myself better than or have negative thoughts about the man sleeping on the park bench or the man operating a weed eater on the grounds of the LSU campus. I can remember not getting angry with the guy who pulled out in front of me or the clerk who was rude at the counter. I can remember being pleasant with all of the people I encountered throughout the day with cordial greetings. God even revealed His presence in the part He played in my day. The topic by our speaker at my usual bible study luncheon on Thursdays was “God is with us constantly. Do you live with a steady awareness of His presence with you?” How amazing is that that God would confirm my decision to retain a continuous, conscious encounter with Him through the words of another man on the same day I decided to be 100% faithful.
On my drive home from work without the radio blaring, I realized that today was filled with joy, happiness and loving-kindness. I then began wondering why and how do we allow these negative emotional states to overtake us and decided that it was not necessarily concupiscence. What drives these thoughts are the evil spirits which we allow to invade our soul, mind and heart. We are not fully committed to God. We allow evil to hang around. We must come to realize that God choses to be constantly with us but it is we who are not aware of His presence on a minute to minute basis. We lapse into a state of evil consciousness. When god through His holy spirit invades every cell of our being, there is no room for evil. All vices are pushed out of body and soul and we can act Christ-like.. What I learned is that when we think and talk to ourselves and others, we must act as though we are having a conversation with God. And in the process we wind up imitating Christ. I found it emotionally draining to keep God in the forefront of my consciousness all day. But today I learned that with a lot of effort, a little practice and patience and the diligence of God, it can be done.
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